Still Angry.....After all these years..

Remember, the other day..When you read about my kinda habit of lying about my age? I think I may have told one or two boyfriends along the way that I was pregnant .. Gasp....Horror......Shame... I know. I was a teenager and I needed unconditional love.. It never worked out in my favor.. I was Never ACTUALLY pregnant and I always confessed, or they would get scared and run off and never come back.. Shameful.. I know, I was young and dumb.. 

So anyway.. I'm not here to confess my sins today.. Been there done that, now it's time to move on. 

So my little white lies, I realize the whole pregnancy thing may or may not have given some older boys I knew a heart attack. But other than that, I didn't really tell lies to hurt people. It was more of a *Lets see what Kind of attention I can get* Kind of a thing. I never meant to hurt anyone.. I never really caused life altering damage to someone.. That I know of.. I think..

So anyway, The reason why I bring this up so late tonight is because someone told a big lie about me when I was a teenager and it ruined a lot of other relationships. They said that I did something really awful, and It hurt them in a very very bad way. The truth is so much different. I was a wild teenager and I kissed lots of boys, and stole lots of boyfriends, and got kissed by a couple teachers. I wasn't a MEAN person, All though the whole boyfriend stealing makes me sound that way. I was not aggressive or mean or caddy or bully-ish. This lie was so monumental that I got a reputation in my neighborhood, It got around in church, it got around at school.. It was devastating.. It STILL is Devastating.. I just want to go on the record saying this... I didn't do what you said I did. YOU know this, I know this.. I hope that your not telling everyone you meet that this happened to you, because YOU know it's a lie..

Anyway..  11 years later and I'm still butt hurt.. I know, I should get over it. and that is why I wrote this little bloggy blog.. I needed to get it off my chest. and now I did, and I'm fine now.. 

So I guess I can let go of the anger and resentment and just be ok.. Just like My Girl Ingrid Michelson says.. "I just want to be okay today" So that is all, and I am fine now.. I'm going to go snuggle up against my mister and read my  Nook.. or a book on my Nook... Oh sweet Jesus. IT's time for bed.. goodnight Blog land.. I ibid you Adieu